He stands always outside the college,
only got a glimpse on mine,
without exchange a word followed behind me,
My friends told that he loved me,
But why he couldn’t even try to talk with me?
Six months passed still I didn’t even know his name,
But inside my heart
his innocence created some space,
without my knowledge!
He always wore a red colour shirt,
formal and properly ironed,
combed his hair with oil and gel
like he had interview which he must be attend.
One rainy day,
I was going to college,
in way I found him stood under a tree and waited.
To give him a chance,
I stopped myself.
I was nervous,
still went and stood his beside under the tree
hoping and praying to God to give him courage.
His hands were quivered,
In cold or because of nervousness
I don’t know,
still he managed to say ‘hi’.
I couldn’t believe my ear
but I said ‘hi’ in return.
“I am Samar’ he said
after just formal introduction
he asked me my phone number.
I thought a while
but gave my phone number in a paper.
I waited for three days,
he didn’t phone me back,
not even come to college.
I was felt humiliated,
Was it just a game for him
to get my attention?
was he ever love me?
Or something bad happening with him.
I sobbed, couldn’t sleep, couldn’t eat
Might be I made a mistake
I mustn’t be fall in love with that random guy.
Next day, suddenly,
Samir entered inside the class
Looked at me with a big smile
Wearing a white dress,
looking handsome like always,
Smile brought in my face,
But I heard my best friend’s yelling
Samir disappeared like a smoke
I understood in was just my imagination.
‘Class is suspended,’ my friend told. ‘Let’s go home.’
‘Why?’
‘Because . . . Samir,
the boy who had a huge crush over you
died in a road accident.’
I was shocked
tear fell down from my eyes,
I wanted to see him for the last time,
So, I asked Samir’s address,
rode in bicycle, used my whole strength
but till I reached his body was brunt
I couldn’t even see him for last time,
With him I panned my whole future…
I was broken down for some months,
It was taken much more time to recovered.
yes…
it was my first love
my Samar …
and he has taken a special place in my heart
ever and ever…
bpsenapati 